** one step ahead **

10th JULY 2010

today, my sis (the eldest) engagement day.

im happy for her :))

FINALLY!

after done searching and scanning

she found someone

to call SOUL

MATE.

alhamdulillah..

actually there's a lot of people having an event

thats because..

it is ten seven ten.

did u get wut i mean??

so..

most of my relatives went to other events first before come to my residence.

this wonderful event of my sister's started at 3.00 pm

before the day....

i was so damn tired.

as usual, when there's any event or occasion at my home,

my job was as a RUNNER.

go here and there to bu

y the needed stuff.

*sgt penat kot keje sbg runner ni*

huh..

busy thinking of wut the "hantaran" will look like.

ketandusan idea..

and after penat memerah otak..

here is the 70% of the "hantaran" hasil drpd brainstorming me and along..

all of the hantaran are done at midnight.

pheewww~~!

its not juz us two who contribute the idea.

credits to MAK NGAH and MAK TEH also. ;)

*70% ready*

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hello.

before all, i wanna inform u, my dear reader n follower, this post is about me, my feelings and thoughts. again. after the previous one.

i know blog is not a "diary" and yeah, indeed there are still bloggers who actually make a blog as their medium to tell sumthing bout them. sumthing bout their hearts. sumthing bout their lives.

*included me as well*

so, here it is.. bout my significant other.. again.. why so much about him? is it because he is on the top of so called 'my important people' list?

i dunno. but i thought so. blueergghhh!! yeah. call me a loser. call me anything u like. n then again, it is me. NOT YOU!

i dunno why this shit is still running in my mind.

hate it. a lot.

i wish i could let go of everything. yeah. EVERYTHING.

tired of it.

sick of it.

i love a statement made by a friend of mine,

" evyone have their own part that Allah gave to them" (mimie sobri, 2010)

yeah. its damn true. i keep thinking of that statement.

ok. pnat dh speaking. bahasa melayu lak.

hm.. aku suke statement yg akan buat aku berfikir.

sbb kdg2 kita alpa.

jadi, kita kne mntk pndgn dan pndpt org lain.

tanak jd selfish.

rse diri tu betul je sume.

x elok lah mcm tu..

*sigh*

i wish i could push this feeling away.

feeling unfair..

ooppssiiieeee! english plak. ok. back to malay!!

ermm.. rse tidak adil..

"nape die boleh mcm tu.. tp aku x boleh mcm ni.."

x suke bila question yg mcm tu timbul dlm fikiran.

damn i hate it.

sbb aku x sepatutnye pertikaikan mcm tu..

die adalah die. dan aku adalah aku.

mane boleh same.

dan mmg x akan same.

jd sbb tu lah, die boleh jd mcm tu. dan aku x boleh jd mcm ni.

but then after heard those wise words from mimie, slowly, i can accept the fact,

that "evyone have their own part that Allah gave to them".

*thanx mimie!!*

walaupn dlm ssh mcm ni.. i still believe, that Allah has better plans for me. :)

sbb sume yg jd, ade hikmah di sebaliknye..

till now, im still waiting for what's ahead.

:)

at my age 21, i realize so many things.

alhamdulillah..

mcm2 yg buat aku rse.. aku patut berubah for a better me.

aku mula sedar yg...

1. true love tu mmg ssh di cari..
2. x sume tanggapan kita tu betul..
3. listen for reasons 1st, then baru boleh get mad
4. fikir sblm blow out ur words..
5. bila die kate, "u can rely on me about EVERYTHING", which is actually its not even-a-thing
6. bersabar bila perlu..
7. considerate itu penting..
8. faham itu ssh..
9. words are sharper than knife..
10. KARMA will play his role in the middle of nowhere.

mmg betul ape org kate.. selagi dlm hati tu ade sayang.. org tu buat ape pn xpe..

sounds stupid.. tp, ble dh kne, sndiri tawu la mcm mne...

sape suke ade perasaan mcm ni.. sumpah aku x suke..

tp ape aku nk buat?

nk let go of everything...

im afraid of regretting it..

yeah..

call me coward. call me born with no balls. aikk??

*i am born with no balls* haha.

haihh..

penat lah cte psl feeling ni..

x berkesudahan..

selagi ade hati, dan fikiran..

selagi tu lah akan ade segala mcm perasaan ni..

pe-RASA-an.