another sundayyy

hello!

hmm..

hr ni dh sunyi dh..

sbb tikah dh blk..

dh 4 mlm die stay dgn aku..

tetibe ble xde..

rse cm missing plak..

heh.

"tikah... nt hg blk mesia.. kte jumpe lg taw!"

hmm..

mse tikah ade..

kitorg lepak rmai2.. g berbuka puasa kt tampin

dgn paan, pian, sara n aten..

best gk la..

gelak sakan.. sume org tgk pelik je..

haha.

pas 2..

ade gk la aku bwk tikah pegi jln2 kt jonker walk..

tp agak bosan sbb stalls kt ctu cepat lak nk ttup..

br kul 11 sume org dh kemas2..

huhu..

but its ok..

kitorg having fun jgk..

:DD

ohh tikah.. damn i miss u!

random~

hello!

skg ni dh jarang update blog..

bkn ape...

aku bz sket sem ni..

hmm..

mlm ni x tawu nape

ht rse sayu je..

ape pn yg jd mesti akn wat aku sedey..

there is one guy..

ntah nape

kdg2 rse benci dgn die

kdg2 rse jealous ble tgk die dgn org lain..

tp pk2 blk

mcm bodoh je nk jealous..

bkn bf aku pn..

heh

buang karan je..

tp aku juz nyampah ble die ade gurl lain

n then flirt ngn aku

x di nafikn..

aku suke jgk la ngn die..

juz sbb die tu

fhm aku..

and slalu dgr je ape aku nk ckp..

tp..

ah..

mls pk lah

benci.

B.E.N.C.I

bf aku plak..

hmm....

ah, bab ni pn mls cte..

NEXTTTT!!!

hm.. esk aku ade test..

tgh study jgk sbnanye td..

ni lepak jap..

pening dh..

hehe.

sem ni bz sgt..

sdar x sdar dh week 7..

dh halfway...

mcm mne la result aku nt..

cuak jgk..

cuak sgt2..

hmm...

Ya Allah...

bantulah hamba-Mu ini...

aminnnn..

lg smggu aku dh cuti raya..

raya..

best ke?

or sedey mcm previous year jgk?

hm..

zmn kanak2 je syok time raya..

jln rata kampung..

haha.

makin meingkat umur ni

mcm makin x rse kemeriahannye..

:(

mata dh layu ni..

tp xleh tido lg..

ade lg 1 bab kne study..

huhu

ok lah.

out dlu..

bubye!

"jangan seronok sgt... nanti menangis.."

hello!

u all perasan tak?

dari kecik, smpai besor

kte familiar sgt dgn kata2 "jgn seronok sgt... nnt menangis.."

kn?

tp betul ke?

jd adakah kalo kte selalu sedih nt lame2 akan happy?

x pnah pulak dgr "jgn sedih sgt... nt gembira.."

hm..

im doubting it..

tp x kesah la..

everyone hv their own opinion and thoughts.

as for me,

i think when we happy,

we must enjoy and cherish dat moment.

sbb kte x tawu..

bpe lame saat bahagia tu akn stay dgn kte..

mgkn kejap..

mgkn lame..

so sementara ada,

enjoy it. cherish the moment.

but..

when it comes to the sad one..

jgn la rse down..

tp kne kuat..

olwez look at the bright side..

everything happens for a reason..

if the bad thing happened..

take it as a lessons learned..

i have my own soothing words

wanna try??

hehe

im a strong woman.

im a happy-living girl.

im gorgeous.

im good.

im great.

i am myself wannabe :)

** one step ahead **

10th JULY 2010

today, my sis (the eldest) engagement day.

im happy for her :))

FINALLY!

after done searching and scanning

she found someone

to call SOUL

MATE.

alhamdulillah..

actually there's a lot of people having an event

thats because..

it is ten seven ten.

did u get wut i mean??

so..

most of my relatives went to other events first before come to my residence.

this wonderful event of my sister's started at 3.00 pm

before the day....

i was so damn tired.

as usual, when there's any event or occasion at my home,

my job was as a RUNNER.

go here and there to bu

y the needed stuff.

*sgt penat kot keje sbg runner ni*

huh..

busy thinking of wut the "hantaran" will look like.

ketandusan idea..

and after penat memerah otak..

here is the 70% of the "hantaran" hasil drpd brainstorming me and along..

all of the hantaran are done at midnight.

pheewww~~!

its not juz us two who contribute the idea.

credits to MAK NGAH and MAK TEH also. ;)

*70% ready*

:::::::::: waiting ::::::::::

hello.

before all, i wanna inform u, my dear reader n follower, this post is about me, my feelings and thoughts. again. after the previous one.

i know blog is not a "diary" and yeah, indeed there are still bloggers who actually make a blog as their medium to tell sumthing bout them. sumthing bout their hearts. sumthing bout their lives.

*included me as well*

so, here it is.. bout my significant other.. again.. why so much about him? is it because he is on the top of so called 'my important people' list?

i dunno. but i thought so. blueergghhh!! yeah. call me a loser. call me anything u like. n then again, it is me. NOT YOU!

i dunno why this shit is still running in my mind.

hate it. a lot.

i wish i could let go of everything. yeah. EVERYTHING.

tired of it.

sick of it.

i love a statement made by a friend of mine,

" evyone have their own part that Allah gave to them" (mimie sobri, 2010)

yeah. its damn true. i keep thinking of that statement.

ok. pnat dh speaking. bahasa melayu lak.

hm.. aku suke statement yg akan buat aku berfikir.

sbb kdg2 kita alpa.

jadi, kita kne mntk pndgn dan pndpt org lain.

tanak jd selfish.

rse diri tu betul je sume.

x elok lah mcm tu..

*sigh*

i wish i could push this feeling away.

feeling unfair..

ooppssiiieeee! english plak. ok. back to malay!!

ermm.. rse tidak adil..

"nape die boleh mcm tu.. tp aku x boleh mcm ni.."

x suke bila question yg mcm tu timbul dlm fikiran.

damn i hate it.

sbb aku x sepatutnye pertikaikan mcm tu..

die adalah die. dan aku adalah aku.

mane boleh same.

dan mmg x akan same.

jd sbb tu lah, die boleh jd mcm tu. dan aku x boleh jd mcm ni.

but then after heard those wise words from mimie, slowly, i can accept the fact,

that "evyone have their own part that Allah gave to them".

*thanx mimie!!*

walaupn dlm ssh mcm ni.. i still believe, that Allah has better plans for me. :)

sbb sume yg jd, ade hikmah di sebaliknye..

till now, im still waiting for what's ahead.

:)

at my age 21, i realize so many things.

alhamdulillah..

mcm2 yg buat aku rse.. aku patut berubah for a better me.

aku mula sedar yg...

1. true love tu mmg ssh di cari..
2. x sume tanggapan kita tu betul..
3. listen for reasons 1st, then baru boleh get mad
4. fikir sblm blow out ur words..
5. bila die kate, "u can rely on me about EVERYTHING", which is actually its not even-a-thing
6. bersabar bila perlu..
7. considerate itu penting..
8. faham itu ssh..
9. words are sharper than knife..
10. KARMA will play his role in the middle of nowhere.

mmg betul ape org kate.. selagi dlm hati tu ade sayang.. org tu buat ape pn xpe..

sounds stupid.. tp, ble dh kne, sndiri tawu la mcm mne...

sape suke ade perasaan mcm ni.. sumpah aku x suke..

tp ape aku nk buat?

nk let go of everything...

im afraid of regretting it..

yeah..

call me coward. call me born with no balls. aikk??

*i am born with no balls* haha.

haihh..

penat lah cte psl feeling ni..

x berkesudahan..

selagi ade hati, dan fikiran..

selagi tu lah akan ade segala mcm perasaan ni..

pe-RASA-an.

++ its JULY!!!! ++

hye peeps!

here comes july..

i ended up a month of working with daddy..

and its been MORE than a month spending my time back in kedah.. :)

byk jgk bnde happy yg jd.

something that worth remembering. :)

its been a while though..

i still didnt find my way out of this matter..

cant hold it...

cant fight it..

sedey..

marah...

geram...

rindu...

sume ade...

tp.. what can i do?

hm..

kalo nk diikutkan...

aku dh penat sgt dgn sume ni..

bkn ape.. mslh yg x pnah sudah..

mgkn betul, aku yg slh..

dan kalo aku yg slh.. aku mntk Allah bukakn pintu hati ni utk terima salah aku sndiri..

sbb bkn sng utk sume org terima salah sndiri..

ape betul ke ape yg sdg aku rse skg ni?

atau... ni cuma perasaan negatif semata..

nape die mesti jd cm 2?

mgkn.. aku yg ptut baiki kelemahan diri..

ye lah..

aku x ckup bgus..

byk sgt kekurangan..

kesian jgk kt die...

t'pkse terima seorang yg mcm aku ni....

tp...

TERPAKSA KAH?

aku lgsg x berniat nk memaksa..

kalo dh rse x sggup lg..

aku lepaskn...

tp...

cuma jgn buat mcm ni...

sakit....amat...

rsenye.... boleh je kalo nk bahagia..

aku terima salah aku..

dan die terima salah die..

but..

yeah...

love is easy on words..

kdg aku rse...

ni bkn mse utk tentukan salah sape..

tp ni..

mse utk sedar salah sendiri....

*sekali lagi... maafkan aku.. kalo aku bkn yg terbaik utk die...

::.. meus vita ..::

*greetings*

under this title, "meus vita" a latin language, which means 'my life' in English.

there are 3 phase of me in my current life:

1. daughter
2. sister
3. someone's significant other

what more can i say bout being a daughter to my both parents?

hmm..

honestly, to be a good daughter is not that easy.

me myself, is not a good daughter.

and yet,

i am a rebellious one.

its not that i dont want to be the good one.

but...but...but...

for me, its not easy..

sbb kdg2 sbgai anak remaja,

i selalu rebel.

bkn ape.. cuma kdg kehendak hati x dipenuhi

atau mgkn, kehendak hati berbeza dr ape yg my parents ask for.

so..

most of the time, i rebel to them.

yeah, say whatever u wanna say.

but..

as i grow up,

i learned to love and to respect.

and ade org yg byk ajar i utk appreciate my parents.

before,

i olwez blame my parents.

cuz i think, they who set me became like diz.

i felt so lost.

so lonely.

so sad.

but nobody hears me.

i blame my parents for what im feeling.

cuz to me,

i turn into this because of their problems.

they dont settle theirs,

so they neglect me.

i feel like growing up on my own.

until one day,

i knal dgn seseorang..

who taught me a lot to appreciate parents.

even if I think that they (my parents) are bad.

but me, myself HAVE TO be good to them.

why? why? why?

because.. i am the DAUGHTER.

and they are MY PARENTS.

thats the fate that we could never ever change.

so..

walau sejahat mane pn kte pnah buat dkt ibu bapa..

mesti igt..

without them,

we wont be able to live.

thats the fact that everybody knows.

but very hard for one to understand.

next!!

as a sister.. hm...

i have four sibs included me.

and i am the youngest.

mse kecik2, slalu gado..

gado sepak2..

gado tarik2 rambut...

gado jerit2...

gado maki2..

haha.

itu biase..

but.. i love them!

bila dh besar ni.. baru tawu nikmat ade kakak.

sbb..

they olwez there to support..

bila dh besar ni seronok sgt.

sbb boleh share everything.

share baju..

share cerita..

share masalah..

hmm..

isnt it nice??

and now my sis semua in kl..

yeah. semua keje kt sane..

so when i feel like going there...

juz stay with them lah..

:)

for me they are my super sisters.

eventhough kdg2 rse nk sepak laju2 bila gado...

n rse nk tikam byk2 kali kalo terguris hati.

hehe.

nexttt!!!

aha.. diz one... quite complicated..

if nk story..

smpai esk pn x abes..

:)

my life as someone's significant other...

its not that easy though.

how come u wanna make those two heads become one?

and how on earth do u wanna make those two different hearts become one?

and how the hell are u wanna make those two different people understands what they dont?

ssh kn?

itu la yg i rse skg.. i believe..

sume org pn rse cm tu..

mse tgh happy..

rse cm dunia ni.. ade kte dgn die je..

kalo x happy..

kdg2 rse cm out of option..

itu la yg jd break up tu..

but i hope..

this one is eternity.

:)

as long as i am in a serious relationship,

i'll try my best to be a good one.

or perhaps,

the best that he ever had.

nobody is perfect.

yeah.

that's the word.

but..

at least..

i wanna be more than special.

can i?

:)

to be loved by someone u love,

that's what im looking for.

:)