++ its JULY!!!! ++

hye peeps!

here comes july..

i ended up a month of working with daddy..

and its been MORE than a month spending my time back in kedah.. :)

byk jgk bnde happy yg jd.

something that worth remembering. :)

its been a while though..

i still didnt find my way out of this matter..

cant hold it...

cant fight it..

sedey..

marah...

geram...

rindu...

sume ade...

tp.. what can i do?

hm..

kalo nk diikutkan...

aku dh penat sgt dgn sume ni..

bkn ape.. mslh yg x pnah sudah..

mgkn betul, aku yg slh..

dan kalo aku yg slh.. aku mntk Allah bukakn pintu hati ni utk terima salah aku sndiri..

sbb bkn sng utk sume org terima salah sndiri..

ape betul ke ape yg sdg aku rse skg ni?

atau... ni cuma perasaan negatif semata..

nape die mesti jd cm 2?

mgkn.. aku yg ptut baiki kelemahan diri..

ye lah..

aku x ckup bgus..

byk sgt kekurangan..

kesian jgk kt die...

t'pkse terima seorang yg mcm aku ni....

tp...

TERPAKSA KAH?

aku lgsg x berniat nk memaksa..

kalo dh rse x sggup lg..

aku lepaskn...

tp...

cuma jgn buat mcm ni...

sakit....amat...

rsenye.... boleh je kalo nk bahagia..

aku terima salah aku..

dan die terima salah die..

but..

yeah...

love is easy on words..

kdg aku rse...

ni bkn mse utk tentukan salah sape..

tp ni..

mse utk sedar salah sendiri....

*sekali lagi... maafkan aku.. kalo aku bkn yg terbaik utk die...

::.. meus vita ..::

*greetings*

under this title, "meus vita" a latin language, which means 'my life' in English.

there are 3 phase of me in my current life:

1. daughter
2. sister
3. someone's significant other

what more can i say bout being a daughter to my both parents?

hmm..

honestly, to be a good daughter is not that easy.

me myself, is not a good daughter.

and yet,

i am a rebellious one.

its not that i dont want to be the good one.

but...but...but...

for me, its not easy..

sbb kdg2 sbgai anak remaja,

i selalu rebel.

bkn ape.. cuma kdg kehendak hati x dipenuhi

atau mgkn, kehendak hati berbeza dr ape yg my parents ask for.

so..

most of the time, i rebel to them.

yeah, say whatever u wanna say.

but..

as i grow up,

i learned to love and to respect.

and ade org yg byk ajar i utk appreciate my parents.

before,

i olwez blame my parents.

cuz i think, they who set me became like diz.

i felt so lost.

so lonely.

so sad.

but nobody hears me.

i blame my parents for what im feeling.

cuz to me,

i turn into this because of their problems.

they dont settle theirs,

so they neglect me.

i feel like growing up on my own.

until one day,

i knal dgn seseorang..

who taught me a lot to appreciate parents.

even if I think that they (my parents) are bad.

but me, myself HAVE TO be good to them.

why? why? why?

because.. i am the DAUGHTER.

and they are MY PARENTS.

thats the fate that we could never ever change.

so..

walau sejahat mane pn kte pnah buat dkt ibu bapa..

mesti igt..

without them,

we wont be able to live.

thats the fact that everybody knows.

but very hard for one to understand.

next!!

as a sister.. hm...

i have four sibs included me.

and i am the youngest.

mse kecik2, slalu gado..

gado sepak2..

gado tarik2 rambut...

gado jerit2...

gado maki2..

haha.

itu biase..

but.. i love them!

bila dh besar ni.. baru tawu nikmat ade kakak.

sbb..

they olwez there to support..

bila dh besar ni seronok sgt.

sbb boleh share everything.

share baju..

share cerita..

share masalah..

hmm..

isnt it nice??

and now my sis semua in kl..

yeah. semua keje kt sane..

so when i feel like going there...

juz stay with them lah..

:)

for me they are my super sisters.

eventhough kdg2 rse nk sepak laju2 bila gado...

n rse nk tikam byk2 kali kalo terguris hati.

hehe.

nexttt!!!

aha.. diz one... quite complicated..

if nk story..

smpai esk pn x abes..

:)

my life as someone's significant other...

its not that easy though.

how come u wanna make those two heads become one?

and how on earth do u wanna make those two different hearts become one?

and how the hell are u wanna make those two different people understands what they dont?

ssh kn?

itu la yg i rse skg.. i believe..

sume org pn rse cm tu..

mse tgh happy..

rse cm dunia ni.. ade kte dgn die je..

kalo x happy..

kdg2 rse cm out of option..

itu la yg jd break up tu..

but i hope..

this one is eternity.

:)

as long as i am in a serious relationship,

i'll try my best to be a good one.

or perhaps,

the best that he ever had.

nobody is perfect.

yeah.

that's the word.

but..

at least..

i wanna be more than special.

can i?

:)

to be loved by someone u love,

that's what im looking for.

:)

my school. my pride

.itsy bitsy.

hello mates!

finally weekends are here again! phheewww!

this is the only time that i can sit back and relax at home. (since im working right now) and.. hey! i've got a little time to write something. something about me.

emm.. for today's entry, i wanna share about my primary school

SEKOLAH KEBANGSAAN HAJI MOHD SHARIFF

here's where i completed my six years of schooling from standard 1 until standard 6.

mse i standard 1, my parents daftar name i awal kt skolah tu.. so.. i manage to be placed in the 1st class, which is 1 Amanah.

i was not born as an intelligent girl and yet of course im not stupid!

but i dunno, may be it juz me yg sgt malas. dlm kategori super duper malas!

haha

so... end of my standard 1, my name was announced that i will be moved to class 2 Berdikari!

which is the second class for the next year!

i was very damn afraid to tell my parents..

tp.. i bgtawu jgk la.. and seperti biasa, sebagai reward, my mon rotan i..

huhu. yes..

ROTAN!

menangis tu.. mmg lah.. sakitnye bkn kepalang.. huhu. but its ok.. mmg i who at fault.

sikap pemalas lg nakal tu mmg berterusan until standard 3! which that means, i am in the 2nd class from standard 2 until standard 3.

2 Berdikari

3 Berdikari

msuk je darjah 3, i jd rajin sket.. bkn tetibe dpt hidayah ke ape.. tp my mom yg amik inisiatif.. (sbb die tgk i relax teruk sgt)

so.. here's the terms and condition

"adik, kalo dlm exam dpt markah below than 80, mak rotan adik. which is for an example, kalo dpt 78, mak rotan dua kali. kalo dpt 60, mak rotan 20 kali. so, kalo dpt lg rndh, pandai2 kira sndiri la bpe kali." (mom,1998)

and at that time, i was like... omigod! i am a DEAD meat!

so... lazy no more! jd superb rajin. ahaha!

study..study...study..

became teacher's pet. especially english. my favourite subject. ahhaha.

bangga sbb everytime teacher what exam spelling mesti dpt 100. haha.

until one day, teacher promise who got 100 for spelling she will reward them with CHOCOLATES!

luckily, i got 100 but unfortunately, teacher forgot those CHOCOLATES!

p/s: yg lawaknye, i go and claimed those chocs from her. haha :P

here the exams come....

and i got all above 80%. except for.....pendidikan Islam...i got 78...

huhuhuhu.

and yes. 2 rewards waiting for me at home.. *sigh*

berkat drpd terms and condition yg ibu titahkan mse standard 3,

so i manage to get to the 1st class when im in standard 4.

4 Amanah. yeay! i happy. parents i pn happy!

and i am in the 1st class until standard 6

4 Amanah

5 Amanah

6 Amanah

i am in my comfort zone.. so.. here's the lazy bum come attack again.. in monthly exams, i got number 35th place from 36 people!

one day...

during assembly...

"here's are the name that are shortlisted as our target for 5A's in UPSR.." (cikgu,2001)

and until the last dot, my name is not there!

my name is not on the list!

back into the class.. i was crying.. regretted..

and then here comes the day..

UJIAN PENILAIAN SEKOLAH RENDAH

jeng..jeng..jeng...

tp ntah nape mse jwb exam tu.. rse cm sume soalan boleh jwb..

huhu.. xde lah ssh mcm exam PTS pn..

but still, i rse, jwpn i slh kot.. x mgkn UPSR semudah ni..

day by day.. until exam finish. pulang dgn senyuman

wah. my parents pn mcm antara pcaye dgn tidak je..

ble dpt result....

nahhhh!!

there's only 7 students who gets 5 A's..

yes, only SEVENNNNNNNN.

and this time...

hey!

MY NAME IS ON THE LIST!

yes, MY NAME IS ON THE LIST!

i repeat, MY NAME IS ON THE LIST!

i was very happy. and then call my dad. my dad came and witnessed himself:

NURUL HUDA BT ABDUL RAHMAN AAAAA

and all the people in the school was like,,,,

hey... HUDA got 5 A's???

and i was like... YES, I GOT 5A's teachers, friends...

haha.

may be some of them are gifted with greattt minds. but me, stupidity or intelligent are not something that i was born with. but they are something that i have to look for and make a choice.

p/s: attitude malas and nakal tu till now pn still ade. juz now i know when to use it well. :) and im not that bad actually. when im in standard 2, i joined pertandingan membaca doa Iftitah. and got 2nd place. hoyeahhh!! :D

++ wacky waka waka ++

hye :)

world cup theme song is getting stuck in my head. :)

-_-"

When you fa

ll get up, oh oh

If you fall get up, eh eh
Tsamina mina zangalewa
Cuz this is Africa
Tsamina mina, eh eh
Waka waka, eh eh
Tsamina mina zangalewa
This time for Africa

Meaning of the words in Fang language:

# Tsaminamina means Come.

# Waka waka means Do it – as in perform a task. Waka is pidgin language meaning walk while working.

# Tsaminamina zangalewa means where do you come from?.

# Wana means it is mine.

# Zambo means wait.

shakira! shakira!

hehe. she's roxx! luv her. luv her song though! :D

lets WAKA WAKA!

"kaw ingat, company ni BAPAK kaw yg punya??"

hello.



again. wanna story-mory bout my work..



haha. see the title? or does it sound very familiar to u?



hurrmmm... yeah. it sounds sarcastic and yet boleh di kategorikan agak kasar la jgk..

tp mmg betul pn ayat tu.. cuz when u work with ur dad's company... u boleh wat sesuka hati jgk la.. huhu.. xde la sesuka hati sgt..
juz mcm dtg keje lewat sket.. tp sikittttttt je taw. lebih2 x leh la..
pas 2, kalo sakit perut or kpale, leh je ckp nk cuti..
tp x de surat mc pn..
haha.
kdg kita tgk dlm drama..
org 2 suka hati je nk pegi keje or tanak..
sbb keje dgn company BAPAK dia yg punya..
huhu.
but for me
even skg i keje dgn company BAPAK i yg punya
x leh la nk wat cm 2 sgt..
mcm i ckp td,
sikit2 je x pe...
jgn lebih2..

commitment is important..
it doesnt matter who's company it is
in my point of view
commitment is something that related to attitude and discipline.
no commitment, means no attitude and no discipline..
x best la cm tu kn..

tp yg bestnye..
keje dgn company dat own by family especially BAPAK sendiri
mmg different dgn keje dgn org..
as for me,
i think,
kalo kene mrh dgn boss which is boss itu adalah our father,
kita x terasa sgt.. sbb.. ye lah..
dh name pn AYAH, BAPAK, ABAH kita..
esok lusa.. ilang lah marahnye tu...
tp!
kalo kne marah dgn majikan yg bkn ahli keluarga kita
perasannye..
pergghhh..
malu ade..
n terguris perasaan pn ade...
huhu
but.. ade pro and con jgk keje dgn parents or family ni..
sbb akan ade part yg kita rse seroooooonok sgt
and ade part yg kita rse.... ggrrrr! sakit hati!
huhu.
itulah.. lumrah alam..
ade baik..
ade buruk...
ape2 pn...
nk ucapkan...

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to my abah... ABDUL RAHMAN B. RAZAK

:: the best among all ::

DEAR GOD - avenged sevenfold

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line

Miles away from those I love

purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
And where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again, oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will

have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely

and I'm tired

I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold

When hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
purpose hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,

When I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

*the orange color is the part of the song where i like the most!

i suke gila lah lagu ni.. everytime i heard this song, i feel so touched.. feels like wanna cry.. :( the meaning of each line memang sgt mendalam.. huhu.

byk jgk lagu a7x yg i suke.. a little piece of heaven and seize the day.. pn best jgk..

avenged sevenfold or a7x ni adalah band yg... rock yg smpai screaming and head banging sume...haha.. but their lyrics are very meaningful.. i dunno much bout this band pn actually.. some of their songs je yg i dgr pn.. most of it i juz read their lyrics. :) anyway, i still luv this band much.

two thumbs up for this band!

*juz something worth to display*

JERSEY!!

huhu. teringin jgk nk jersey PORTUGAL sebijik... nk wat bju tido... hehe. *big grinnnnn*

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